It was better than usual yesterday.... I was better than usual.
I didn't put so much effort, no, I didn't try to understand.
I didn't really even try to "believe."
I decided just to sit there and try to know.
And I think I succeeded.
I was younger by several decades than the next youngest person there when it began, and I was struck by the idea of the deceptive power of the prayer of such collective age, such collective wisdom and collective devotion... as if Yoda were Catholic ;oP.
I only "discovered" Adoration as an adult, I am part of that first wave of the grossly miscatechized.
My blessed Mother, (lower case "b", ) was devout and pretty darn knowledgeable, but she was overwhelmed sometimes, and I think she expected her enormous brood to learn a good portion of their Catholicism as she probably had, by osmosis.
And I suppose I did... eventually.
The weekly classes at parish or convent were mostly a waste.
I remember her shock when she had to explain the Angelus to me. (even worse was when a brother received a medal as a confirmation gift and murmured quizzically, "Oh... a bird.")